There was a moment in your arms, when my head was on your chest and my hands around your waist, hearing your heartbeat and feeling your warmth, that I was suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of unexplainable feelings. And I cried. Silently. It was dark so u didn’t see my tears. But like you always do, you asked me what’s wrong, as though you could sense and read my mind. But I replied that there’s nothing wrong.. because I didn’t want you to worry and the fact is I didn’t even know the main cause of it.
I was just overwhelmed by all sorts of feelings, the good and the bad. It could be a feeling of gratitude that despite all these problems, I have my bliss - you. You helped to sweeten my journey and make those problems less bitter than it originally were.
And there’s also the overpowering love for you that it hurts me so much. Not that u hurt me in any way but because it scares me thinking that one day, one of us will leave, be it within a human’s capacity (which I truly hope wldnt ever occur) or naturally decided by The Almighty. I can’t imagine having to lose you sayang… )):
And that said, I am really afraid of the future baby.. What if things change, due to feelings or circumstances? Because while love empowers me, it weakens me too